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this time imperfect




i cannot leave here, i cannot stay
forever haunted, more than afraid
asphyxiate on words i would say
i'm drawn to a blackened sky as i turn blue

there are no flowers, no not this time
there will be no angels, gracing the lines
just these stark words i find
i'd show a smile but i'm too weak
i'd share with you, could i only speak
just how much this hurts me

i cannot stay here, i cannot leave
just like all i loved, i'm make believe
imagine heart, i disappear...
seems No one will appear here and make me real

there are no flowers, no not this time
there will be no angels, gracing the lines
just these stark words i find
i'd show a smile but i'm too weak
i'd share with you, could i only speak
just how much this hurts me

i'll tell you how it haunts me.(cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams)
you dont care that it haunts me

there are no flowers, no not this time
there'll be no angels, gracing the lines
just these stark words i find.
i'd show a smile, but i'm too weak
i'd share with you, could i only speak
just how much this hurts me
just how much this hurts me
just how much you...


silver & cold



i, i came here by day
but i left here in darkness
and found you, found you on the way

but now, it is silver and silent
it is silver and cold
you in somber resplendence
i hold...


your sins into me
oh, my beautiful one
your sins into me
as a rapturous voice escapes
i will tremble a prayer
and i'll beg for forgiveness
your sins into me
your sins into me
oh, my beautiful one

light, like the flutter of wings
feel your hollow voice rushing
into me as you're longing to sing
so i,i will paint you in silver
i will wrap you in cold
i will lift up your voice as i sink


your sins into me
oh, my beautiful one, now
your sins into me
as a rapturous voice escapes
i will tremble a prayer
and i'll beg for forgiveness
your sins into me
your sins into me

cold in life's throes
i'll fall asleep for you
cold in life's throes
i only ask you turn away
cold in life's throes
i'll fall asleep for you
cold in life's throes
i only ask you turn
as you seep into me
oh, my beautiful one, now...

your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one
your sins into me
as a rapturous voice escapes
i will tremble a prayer
and i'll beg for forgiveness
your sins into me
your sins into me

your sins into me
oh, my beautiful one, now
your sins into me
as a rapturous voice escapes
i will tremble a prayer
and i'll beg for forgiveness
your sins into me
your sins into...
your sins into me
your sins in to me
oh my beautiful one

girl's not grey



i'll lay me down tonight
much further down
swim in the calm tonight
this art does drown

what follows me as the whitest lace of light
will swallow whole
just begs to be imbrued?
what follows has led me to this place where i belong with all erased

what follows?
all insects sing tonight, the coldest sound
i'd send gods grace tonight
could it be found?

what follows
me as the whitest lace of light
will swallow whole
just begs to be imbrued

what follows has led me to this place where i belong with all erased

i lay me down tonight
much further down
watch stars go out tonight
on sinking ground

i'll lay me down
i'll lay me down

what follows me as the whitest lace of light
will swallow whole
just begs to be imbrued

what follows, has led me to this place where i belong With all erased

what follows
will swallow whole
what follows
will swallow whole

this celluloid dream



oh

calling tears from deep inside, oh, you're so exquisite
and in the mirror, all midnight eyes
oh, if i could remain, but it's just a visit. all midnight eyes
read "vacancy"
twisted, twisting

to the lovely dancing lights, i beg "may i cut in?" but they never stop playing
"their song"
of a joyous song they sing
i've heard whispers. on a freezing note, i resonate

just like romantic verses
just like a joyous end
just like a memory: it twists me
just like romantic verses
just like a joyous end
twist, twisted me

you land as lightly as the new snow
(cinematic)
onto the melting boy
(and melt away)
you light as gently, you're so
(cinematic)
bathed in your radiance i melt!

in the glitter in the dark, sunk into velvet
praying this will never end
in the shadow of a star
in static pallor
i realize i never began

just like romantic verses
just like a joyous end
just like a memory: it twists me
just like romantic verses
just like a joyous end
twist, twisted me

you land as lightly as the new snow
(cinematic)
onto the melting boy
(and melt away)
uou light as gently, you're so
(cinematic)
bathed in your radiance i melt!

all the colors upon leaving all will turn to grey
all the colors upon leaving all will turn to grey

(all grey!)
all the colors
(all grey!)
upon leaving
(all grey!)
all will turn to grey
(all grey!)
all the colors
(all grey!)
upon leaving
(all grey!)
all will turn to grey

{grey}

(twisted me)

you land as lightly as the new snow
(cinematic)
onto the melting boy
(and melt away)
you light as gently, you're so
(cinematic)
bathed in your radiance!

you land as lightly as the new snow
(cinematic)
you land as lightly as the new snow
(and melt away)
you land as lightly as the new snow
(cinematic)
bathed in your radiance I melt!

miseria cantare



love your hate, your faith lost
you are now one of us

love your hate, your faith lost
you are now one of us

nothing, from nowhere, i'm no one at all
radiate. recognize one silent call as we all form one dark flame
incinerate

nothing, from nowhere i'm no one at all
radiate. recognize one silent call as we all form one dark flame
as we all form one dark flame
as we all...

love your hate, your faith lost
you are now one of us

love your hate, your faith lost
you are now one of us

the leaving song



walked away, heard them say
"poison hearts will never change,"
walk away again
turned away in disgrace
felt the chill upon my face cooling from within

hard to notice gleaming from the sky
when you're staring at the cracks
hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered

you... walked away, heard them say
"poison hearts will never change,"
walk away again

all the cracks, they lead right to me
and all the cracks will crawl right through me
all the cracks, they lead right to me
and all the cracks will crawl right through me, and i fell apart

as i... walked away, heard them say
"poison hearts will never change,"
walk away again
turned away in disgrace
felt the chill upon my face cooling from within

the leaving song pt. 2



don't waste your touch
you won't feel anything
or were you sent to save me?
i've thought to much
you won't find anything
worthy of redeeming

yo he estado aquí muchas veces antes y regreso (i have been here a lot of times and have come back again)
to...

break down!
and cease all feeling
burn now!
what once was breathing
reach out!
and you may take my heart away!

imperfect cry
scream in ecstasy
so what befalls the flawless?

look what i've built
(please dont do this)
it shines so beautifully
(why wont you look at me?)
now watch as it destroys me

y regreso aquí otra vez y comienzo (and i come back here and i start again)
to...

break down!
and cease all feeling
burn now!
what once was breathing
reach out!
and you may take my heart away!

break down!
and cease all feeling
burn now!
what once was breathing
reach out!
and you may take my heart away!

i left it all behind and never said goodbye
i left it all behind and never said goodbye
i left it all behind and never said goodbye
i left it all to die.

i saw its birth
i watched it grow
i felt it change me
i took the life
i ate it slow
now it consumes me

break down!
and cease all feeling
burn now!
what once was breathing
reach out!
and you may take my heart away!

break down!
and cease all feeling
burn now!
what once was breathing
reach out!
and you may take my heart away!

heart away!

now the world



summer, i painted a scene that lit the stars for me
said, "i can erase it for you dear."
that summer created those words that came to life in three
they were denied by you

summer i laid down below a glitter-adorned night
and silently sparkled my own way
summer i laid down by you and shared my frail light
you gave the dark to me

i looked inside to find the one i sent away
i nearly froze when i stepped inside to find the flowers turned to gray
i closed my eyes and kissed them one last time
(i wanted this excoriation. i thrive on this self mutilation.)

summer, a morning, so pale, alone when they found me
as i remained sleeping i heard them say
"this summer created a boy of abject misery."
he was designed by you

i looked inside to find the one i sent away
i nearly froze when i stepped inside to find the flowers turned to gray
i closed my eyes and kissed them one last time
(i wanted this excoriation. i thrive on this self mutilation.)

so like a lost child i will hide
and like a lost lie i will find a way to return to the one who made me
cover your eyes and we'll die together

will you cry for me? will you cry for me? or will you die with me?
will you cry for me? will you cry for me? or will you die with me?
will you cry for me?
i've been a lonely one
will you cry for me?
i've had this whole world drained from me
or will you die with me?
will you cry for me?
am i the only one?
will you cry for me?
i've had this world drained from me
or will you die with me?

summer, i painted a scene that lit the stars for me
said "i can erase it for you dear."

bleed black



i am exploring the inside
i find it desolate
i do implore these confines now as they penetrate
"recreate me."
i'm hovering throughout time
i crumble in these days
i crumble, cannot, i cannot find reflection in these days

if you listen, (listen, listen) listen close
beat-by-beat, you can hear when a heart stops
i saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust

i am destroyed by the inside
i disassociate
i hope to destroy the ouside
it will alleviate and elevate me
like water flowing into lungs, i'm flowing through these days
like morphine drops through, through deadened veins i'm numbing in these days

if you listen, (listen, listen) listen close
beat-by-beat, you can hear when a heart stops
i saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust


i know what died that night
it can never be brought back to life once again, i know
i know what died that night
it can never be brought back to life once again, i know
i know i died that night and i'll never be brought back to life
once again, i know
i know i died that night and i'll never be brought back to life
once again, i know

if you listen, (listen, listen) listen close
beat-by-beat, you can hear when a heart stops
i saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust
if you listen, (listen, listen) listen close
(it dies) beat-by-beat, you can hear when a heart stops
i saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust

death of seasons



of late, it's harder just to go outside
to leave this deadspace with hatred, so alive
writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, i decay
killed by the weakness, but forced to return. turn it off

i watch the stars as they fall from the sky
i held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying
i feel the fallen stars encircle me, now as they cry

out there so quickly grows malignant tribes
posthuman extinction excels, unrecognized
feeling surrounded. So bored with mortality, i decay
all of this hatred is fucking real. Turn it on... yeah!

i watch the stars as they fall from the sky
i held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying
i feel the fallen stars encircle me, now as they cry

it won't be all right, despite what they say
just watch the stars tonight as they, as they disappear, disintegrate
and i disintegrate, 'cause this hate is fucking real
and i hope to shade the world, as stars go out and i disintegrate

...will not be alright...
...despite what they say...
...just watch the sky...
...when stars go out...

dancing through sunday



will you join me in this dance, this dance of misery
cradled in imposs... impossibility?
swooning, i am swept away
swept off my feet, with step by step by step, we take the lead
as drop by drop, we start to bleed
oh, we dance in misery
(and we dance on, and we dance on)
oh, we dance in misery
(all lost in the arms of our misery, oh)
oh, we dance in misery
(and we dance on, and we dance on)
swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows


will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
iet me hide within your black, the still inside your eyes
deafened, caught within a cry
so sensual, as step by step by step, i seperate
as breath to breath, as i... suffocate

(oh, we dance in misery)
and we dance on, and we dance on
(oh, we dance in misery)
all lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(oh, we dance in misery)
and we dance on, and we dance on
swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows

so who will follow? Who is the lead?
i know i'll leave a stain, because i bleed
as we dance, we all dance
we all... have no chance in this horrid romance

(oh, we dance in misery)
and we dance on, and we dance on
(oh, we dance in misery)
all lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(oh, we dance in misery)
and we dance on, and we dance on
swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows
swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows

paper airplanes (makeshift wings)



raise high monolithic statues so fragile. as they fall
i am ever enthralled
gaze, lie and smirk in time
your arrogance will suit you well
'til fashion is dispelled


as waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
you're going out (going out) forever alone
these waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
you're going out (going out) forever alone

from above a rain of ashes descends anathema
i will remain, forever will remain
from below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see
see paper wings and watch them burn


without habitation you'll never find a soul inside
no life, but nothing's died
no lights, but quite the show (just as long as no one ever knows
emotion is pantomime

as waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
you're going out (going out) forever alone
these waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
you're going out (going out) forever alone

from above a rain of ashes descends anathema
i will remain, forever will remain
from below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see
see paper wings and watch them burn


dancing in the rain of descending ash
dancing on your grave, i'll see you all falling
dancing in the rain of descending ash
dancing in your dust, i'll see you all falling

stop!

i'd stop it, had you a heart
i'd stop it, had you a heart

from above a rain of ashes descends anathema
i will remain, forever will remain
from below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see
see paper wings and watch them burn


from above a rain of ashes descends anathema
i will remain, forever will remain
from below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see
see paper wings and watch them burn

synesthesia



heartbreak incarnate
i'm nothing if not your memories
heartbreak - please let me be
your joy and your pain

someday i will be
i'll be those common words spoken uniquely
because I may, will forever be
floating as you feel


please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
letters of past all tear-stained and wrinkled
please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
letters of past all tear-stained and wrinkled

(just say) say you will for me (for me)
invite me to your memory
(uust sing) sing again for me (for me)
that long forgotten song


heartbreak incarnate
i'm nothing if not your memories
heartbreak - please let me be
your joy and your pain

someday i will be
i'll be that waking warmth from a fading dream
because i will, i may at best
float as you feel

please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
letters of past all tear-stained and wrinkled
please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
letters of past all tear-stained and wrinkled

(just say) say you will for me (for me)
invite me to your memory
(just sing) sing again for me (for me)
that long forgotten song
(just say) say you will for me (for me)
invite me to your memory
(just sing) Sing again for me (for me)
that long forgotten song

let me be all the words
let me be all the words echoing comfort
let me be all the words that you'd unsay
unsay, unsay, unsay

hidden gap

we held hands on the last night on earth
our mouths filled with dust
we kissed under the trees
and in the fields
screaming like dogs
bleeding dark into leaves


it was empty on the edge of town
but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river
so we walk through the waste
where the road curved into the sea
and the shattered seasons lay
and the bitter smell of Burning was on you like a disease
in our cancer of passion you said
"death is a midnight runner."


the sky came crashing down
like the news of an intimate suicide
we picked up the shards
and formed them into shapes of stars
that wore like an antique wedding dress
the echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn
as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop


the few insects skittered away
in hopes of a better pastime
i kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked
if you would accompany me in a quick fall
but you made me realize
that my ticket wasn't good for two...
i rode alone


you said the cinders are falling like snow
there is poetry in despair
and we sang with unrivaled beauty
bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence.
of blue and grey
strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in
the flesh of the city


the sun was stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon
and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines
still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward
and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched
into the earth like a message

but home is nowhere



twenty-six years and seems like i've just begun
to understand my, my intimate is no one
when the director sold the show, who bought its last rites?
they cut the cast, the music, and the lights


this is my line, this is eternal
how did i ever end up here?
discarnate, preternatural
my prayers to disappear
absent of grace, marked as infernal
ungranted in dead time left me disowned
to this nature, so unnatural
i remain alone


twenty-six years end, still speaking in these tongues
such revelations while understood by no one
when the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace?
please clear this house of ill-acquired taste

this is my line, this is eternal
how did i ever end up here?
discarnate, preternatural
my prayers to disappear
absent of grace, marked as infernal
ungranted in dead time left me disowned
to this nature, so unnatural
i remain alone


give me something, give me something
give me something, give me something
give me something, give me something real

i lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle
everyday another small piece can't be found
i lay strewn across the floor, pieced up in sorrow
the pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit
pieced together incomplete and empty


this is my line, this is eternal
how did i ever end up here?
discarnate, preternatural
my prayers to disappear
absent of grace, marked as infernal
ungranted in dead time left me disowned
to this nature, so unnatural
i remain alone

this is my line, this is eternal
how did i end up here?
discarnate, preternatural
my prayers to disappear
absent of grace, marked as infernal
ungranted in dead time left me disowned
to this nature, so unnatural
i remain alone