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it's been awhile


and it's been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since i first saw you
and it's been awhile since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been awhile since i could call you

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've stretched myself beyond my means

it's been awhile
since i can say that i wasn't addicted
and it's been awhile since i can say i love myself as well and
and it's been awhile since i've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
and it's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've gone and fucked things up again

why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

and it's been awhile
since i could look at myself straight
and it's been awhile since i said i'm sorry
and it's been awhile since i've seen the way the candles light your face
and it's been awhile but i can still remember just the way you taste

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem to be
i know it's me
i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

and it's been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since i said i'm sorry

so far away

this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i’ve shared
and these are my dreams
that i’ve never lived before
somebody shake me
cause i, i must be sleeping

and now that we're here,
so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
and all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
and now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day
i can forgive
and i’m not ashamed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that i’ve never said before
i think i’m doing ok
and this is the smile
that i’ve never shown before

somebody shake me
cause i, i must be sleeping

and now that were here
so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
and all mistakes one life contains
they all finally start to go away
and now that were here
so far away
and i feel like i can face the day
i can forgive
and i’m not ashamed to be the person that i am today

i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please dont shake me

and now that were here
so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
and all the mistakes one life contains
they all finally start to go away
and now that were here
so far away
and i feel like i can face the day
i can forgive
and i’m not ashamed to be the person that i am today