bother

wish i was
too dead to cry
my self-affliction fades
stones to throw
at my creator
masochists
to which i cater

you don't need to bother
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on
i won't let go 'till it bleeds

wish i was
too dead to care
if indeed i cared at all
never had a voice to protest
so you fed me
shit to digest
i wish i had a reason
my flaws are open season
for this i gave up trying
one good turn deserves my dying

you don't need to bother
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on
i won't let go 'till it bleeds

wish i'd died
instead of lived
a zombie hides my face
shell forgotten with its memories
diaries left
with cryptic entries

and you don't need to bother
i don't need to be
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on
i won't let go 'till it bleeds

you don't need to bother
i don't need to be
i'll keep slipping farther
but once i hold on
once i hold on
i'll never live down my deceit...