vindicated

hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it has caught my eye

and roped me in
so, mesmerizing and so hypnotizing
i am captivated, i am

vindicated
i am selfish
i am wrong
i am right
i swear i'm right
swear i knew it all along
and i am flawed, but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

so clear
like the diamond in your ring
cut to mirror your intention
oversized and overwhelmed
the shine of which has caught my eye
and rendered me
so isolated,and so motivated
i am certain now that i am

so turn
up the corners of your lips
part them and feel my finger tips
trace the moment, fall forever

defense is paper thin
just one touch and i'll be in
too deep now to ever swim against the current
so let me slip away
so let me slip against the current
so let me slip away

slight hope
dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption...

the places you have come to fear the most

buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
and covered with a perfect shell
such a charming beautiful exterior
laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by
but you're barely scraping by

this is one time, this is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please
everyone or anyone at all,or anyone at all
and the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most
it's the place that you have come to fear the most

buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
and hidden in the public eye
such a stellar monument to loneliness
laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by
but you're barely scraping by

this is one time, this is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please
everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all
and the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places that you've come to fear the most
it's the place that you have come to fear the most

and you cant fake it hard enough to please
everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all
and the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places that you've come to fear the most
its the place that you have come to fear the most

saints and sailors

this is where i say i've had enough
and no one should ever feel the way that i feel now
a walking open wound
a trophy display of bruises
and i don't believe that i'm getting any better
any better

waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
and i'm thinking awful things
i'm pretty sure that few would notice
and this apartment
is starving for an argument
anything at all to break the silence

wandering this house
like i've never wanted out
and this is about as social as i get now
and i'm throwing away the letters that i am writing you
cause they would never do
i would never do
never

waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
and i'm thinking awful things
i'm pretty sure that few would notice
and this apartment is starving for an argument
anything at all to break the silence

so don't be a liar
don't say that
"everything's working"
when everything's broken
and you smile like a saint
but you curse like a sailor
and your eyes say the jokes on me

but, i'm not laughing
you're not leaving
who do i think i am kidding?
when i'm the only one locked in this hell

waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
and i'm thinking awful things
i'm pretty sure that few would notice
and this apartment is starving for an argument
anything at all to break the silence

so don't be a liar
don't say that "everything's working"
when everything's broken
and you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor
and your eyes say the jokes on me

morning calls

morning calls for pain relief
a line above the step beneath
the worst that you could do
and the best that you could hope for
is hardly the best

tepid water chase the pills
with turpentine & chamomile
and don't get cheap with the wine
you need to be up all of the time

shield your eyes
conceal your lies
don't blink, everyone's watching
they'll think you're up to something
they need for you to be
everything that they cannot

morning calls for pain relief
a line above the step beneath
the worst that you could do
and the best that you could hope for
is hardly the best

tepid water chase the pills
with turpentine & chamomile
and don't get cheap with the wine
you need to be up all of the time
all of the time

shield your eyes
conceal your lies
don't blink, everyone's watching
they'll think you're up to something
they need for you to be
everything that they cannot

don't blink, everyone's watching
they'll think you're up to something
they need for you to be
everything that they cannot
be themselves

screaming infidelities

i'm missing your bed
i never sleep
avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
and this bottle of beast is taking me home
i'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
you're not alone and you're not discreet
you make sure i know who's taking you home
i'm reading your note over again
there's not a word that i comprehend
except when you signed it:
"i'll love you always and forever"
well as for now i'm gonna hear the saddest songs
and sit alone and wonder
how you're making out
but as for me i wish that i was anywhere...
with anyone...
making out
i'm missing your laugh
how did it break?
and when did your eyes
begin to look fake?
i hope you're as happy as your pretending
i'm cuddling close to blanket and sheets
i am alone in my defeat
i wish i knew you were safely at home
i'm missing your bed, i never sleep
avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
and this bottle of beast is taking me home
well as for now i'm gonna hear the saddest songs
and sit alone and wonder...
how you're making out
but as for me i wish that i was anywhere...
with anyone...
making out
your hair
it's everywhere
screaming infidelities
and taking its wear
your hair
it's everywhere
screaming infidelities
and taking its wear
your hair
it's everywhere
screaming infidelities
and taking its wear
your hair
it's everywhere
screaming infidelities
and taking its wear