it's been awhile
and it's been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since i first saw you
and it's been awhile since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been awhile since i could call you
and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've stretched myself beyond my means
it's been awhile
since i can say that i wasn't addicted
and it's been awhile since i can say i love myself as well and
and it's been awhile since i've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
and it's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've gone and fucked things up again
why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day
and it's been awhile
since i could look at myself straight
and it's been awhile since i said i'm sorry
and it's been awhile since i've seen the way the candles light your face
and it's been awhile but i can still remember just the way you taste
and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem to be
i know it's me
i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me
and it's been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since i said i'm sorry