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anniversary



a year ago today we stood
above this same awakening world
i held you...
you never wanted me to know
another year ago today
before this same awakening world
i held you...
i never meant to let you go
there was a moment
there always is
when time stood still
and always was this...
one endless moment
you turn in pain
and I always let you go
over and over again...
a year ago tonight we lay
below this same remembering sky
i kissed you
you never wanted me to know...
another year ago tonight
behind this same remembering sky
i kissed you...
i never meant to let you go
another moment
there always is
as time stands still
and always is this...
one endless moment
you tell me all
and i hold you and i kiss you
and i never let you go
i never let you go...

six different ways


this is stranger than i thought
six different ways inside my heart
and every one i'll keep tonight
six different ways go deep inside

i'll tell them anything at all
i know i'll give them more and more

i'll tell them anything at all
i know i'll give the world and more
they think i'm on my hands and head
this time they're much too slow

six sides to every lie i say
it's that american voice again
"it was never quite like this before
not one of you is the same... "

this is stranger than i thought
six different ways inside my heart
and everyone i'll keep tonight
six different ways go deep inside

from the edge of the deep green sea


every time we do this
i fall for her
wave after wave after wave
it's all for her
"i know this can't be wrong" i say
(and i'll lie to keep her happy)
"as long as i know that you know
that today i belong right here with you"

right here with you...

and so we watch the sun come up
from the edge of the deep green sea
and she listens like her head's on fire
like she wants to believe in me
so i try
"put your hands in the sky
surrender
remember
we'll be here forever
and we'll never say goodbye... "

i've never been so
colourfully-see-through-head before
i've never been so
wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
and all i want is to keep it like this
you and me alone
a secret kiss
and don't go home
don't go away
don't let this end
please stay...
not just for today...

"never never never never never let me go" she says
"hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days"
but suddenly she slows
and looks down at my breaking face
"why do you cry?
what did i say?"
"but it's just rain" i smile
brushing my tears away...

i wish i could just stop
i know another moment will break my heart
too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried over you

how much more can we use it up?
drink it dry?
take this drug?
looking for something forever gone
but something we will always want...

"why why why are you letting me go" she says
"i feel you pulling back
i feel you changing shape"
and just as i'm breaking free
she hangs herself in front of me
slips her dress like a flag to the floor
and hands in the sky
surrenders it all...

i wish i could just stop
i know another moment will break my heart
too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried for you
it's always the same
wake up in the rain
head in pain
hung in shame
a different name
same old game
love in vain
and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
away from home again...

the hanging garden


creatures kissing in the rain
shapeless in the dark again
in the hanging garden
please don't speak
in the hanging garden
no one sleeps

catching haloes on the moon
gives my hands the shapes of angels
in the heat of the night
the animals scream
in the heat of the night
walking into a dream...

fall fall fall fall
into the walls
jump jump out of time
fall fall fall fall
out of the sky
cover my face as the animals cry
in the hanging garden

creatures kissing in the rain
shapeless in the dark again
in a hanging garden
change the past
in a hanging garden
wearing furs and masks...

fall fall fall fall
into the walls
jump jump out of time
fall fall fall fall
out of the sky
cover my face as the animals die
in the hanging garden

in the hanging garden

want

i'm always wanting more
anything i haven't got
everything
i want it all
i just can't stop
planning all my days away
but never finding ways to stay
or ever feel enough today
tomorrow must be more
drink more dreams more bed more drugs
more lust more lies more head more love
more fear more fun more pain more flesh
more stars more smiles more fame more sex
but however hard i want
i know deep down inside
i'll never really get more hope
or any more time
any more time
any more time
any more time

i want the sky to fall in
i want lightning and thunder
i want blood instead of rain
i want the world to make me wonder
i want to walk on water
take a trip to the moon
give me all this and give me it soon
more drink more dreams more drugs
more lust more lies more love
but however hard i want
i know deep down inside
i'll never really get more hope
or any more time
any more time
any more time
any more time

love cats



ah
we move like cagey tigers
we couldn't get closer than this
the way we walk
the way we talk
the way we stalk
the way we kiss
we slip through the streets
while everyone sleeps
getting bigger and sleeker
and wider and brighter
we bite and scratch and scream all night
let's go and throw
all the songs we know...

into the sea
you and me
all these years and no one heard
i'll show you in spring
it's a treacherous thing
we missed you hissed the lovecats

we're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
wonderfully pretty!
oh you know that I'd do anything for you...
we should have each other to tea huh?
we should have each other with cream
then curl up by the fire
and sleep for awhile
it's the grooviest thing
it's the perfect dream

into the sea
you and me
all these years and no one heard
i'll show you in spring
it's a treacherous thing
we missed you hissed the lovecats

we're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
wonderfully pretty!
oh you know that I'd do anything for you...
we should have each other to dinner huh?
we should have each other with cream
then curl up in the fire
get up for awhile
it's the grooviest thing
it's the perfect dream

hand in hand
is the only way to land
and always the right way round
not broken in pieces
like hated little meeces...
how could we miss
someone as dumb as this?

i love you... let's go...
oh... solid gone...
how could we miss
someone as dumb as this?

faith

catch me if i fall
i'm losing hold
i can't just carry on this way
and every time
i turn away
lose another blind game
the idea of perfection holds me...
suddenly i see you change
everything at once
the same
but the mountain never moves...

rape me like a child
christened in blood
painted like an unknown saint
there's nothing left but hope...
your voice is dead
and old
and always empty
trust in me through closing years
perfect moments wait...
if only we could stay
please
say the right words
or cry like the stone white clown
and stand
lost forever in a happy crowd...

no-one lifts their hands
no-one lifts their eyes
justified with empty words
the party just gets better and better...

i went away alone
with nothing left
but faith

if only tonight we could sleep



if only tonight we could sleep
in a bed made of flowers
if only tonight we could fall
in a deathless spell
if only tonight we could slide
into deep black water
and breathe
and breathe...

then an angel would come
with burning eyes like stars
and bury us deep
in his velvet arms

and the rain would cry
as our faces slipped away
and the rain would cry

strange attraction

it started with a dedication
"lost in admiration - happy birthday - i'm forever yours - blossom"
faded red inside a tiny book of butterflies
i smiled surprised at how when flickered through
the wings flew by spelled out my name...

six months went by the summer lost
obsessively the letters dropped into my life
the same soft blood smooth flowing hand
"please try to understand - i have to see you - have to feel you -
tell you all the ways i need you - yours forever in love... "

strange attraction spreads it's wings
it varies but the smallest things
you never know how anything will change
strange attraction spreads it's wings
and alters but the smallest things
you never know how anything will fade

the year grew old incessantly she wrote to me
she'd started smoking poetry!
i laughed in recognition of a favourite phrase
she'd pulled me in...
i answered her
a christmas card in sepia
arranging when and where
and how the two of us should meet...

her opening so well prepared
a nervous smile
i couldn't take my eyes from her
she whispered
"can i use some of your lipstick?"
it was perfect so believable
i couldn't help but feel that it was real
and kissing crimson fell into her waiting arms...

strange attraction spreads it's wings
it varies but the smallest things
you never know how anything will change
strange attraction spreads it's wings
and alters but the smallest things
you never know how anything will fade

so alone into the cold new year without another word from her
i wrote to ask if we could maybe meet again before the spring
but weeks went by with no reply until once more my birthday came
and with it my surprise but this time nothing was the same...

"i'm sorry - blame infatuation - blame imagination -
i was sure you'd be the one but i was wrong -
it seems reality destroys our dreams - i won't forget you - blossom"
faded red inside a tiny book of old goodbyes...

strange attraction spreads it's wings
it varies but the smallest things
you never know how anything will change
strange attraction spreads it's wings
and alters but the smallest things
and you never know...

us or them

there is no terror in my heart
death is with us all
we suck him down with our first breath
and spit him out as we fall
there is no terror in my heart
no dread of the unknown
desire for paradise to be...
we love this on our own
no i don't want you anywhere near me
i don't want you anywhere near me
get your fucking world out of my head
i don't want you anywhere near me
i don't want you anywhere near me
get your fucking world out of my head
i don't want your "us or them"
no i don't need your "us or them"
oh i don't want your "us or them"
i don't need your "us or them
you're us or them..."
"i live in knowledge of real truth
and all my gods are great!"
the doleful cant of a bigot
blinded by fear and hate
you live in knowledge of real truth?
oh the biggest lie i heard
how sick in your mind and soul
to be scared of my voice and my words
oh you don't want me anywhere near you
you don't want me anywhere near you
get my fucking head out of your world
you don't want me anywhere near you
you don't want me anywhere near you
get my fucking head out of your world
i don't want your "us or them"
no i don't need your "us or them"
oh i don't want your "us or them"
i don't need your "us or them"
as the only way this ever ends is "me"

wrong number

lime green, lime green and tangerine
the sickly sweet colors of the snakes i'm seeing
lime green and tangerine
the sickly sweet colors of the devil in my dreams

lime green, lime green and tangerine
the sickly sweet colors of the snakes i'm seeing
lime green and tangerine
the sickly sweet colors of the devil in my dreams

it gets to friday
i give you a call
you know i’m getting kind of worried
she doesn't seem herself at all
lime green and a sickly kind of orange
i’ve never seen her like this before

i had the best laid plans this side of america
started out in church and finished with angelica
red and blue soul with a snow-white smile

can you dig it?

i had the best-laid plans this side of america
started out in church and finished with angelica
and now i dig it in the dirt and i’m down here for a while

you've got to make up your mind and make it soon
is there room in your life for one more trip to the moon?
is there room in your life for one more?

burn red, red and gold
the deep dark colors of the snakes i hold
burn red, burn red, burn red and gold
the deep dark colors of the devil at home

she pulls me down just as i’m trying to hide
grabs me by the hair and drags me outside
and starts digging in the dirt for a not so early bird
it's the only way for her to get the worm

i had the best laid plans this side of america
started out in church and finished with angelica
red and blue soul with a snow-white smile

can you dig it?

i had the best-laid plans this side of america
started out in church and finished with angelica
and now i dig it in the dirt and i’m down here for a while

“hello? are you still there?”
and much too late . . .
“sorry . . . wrong number.”
“i’m sorry you have the wrong number.”

all cats are grey


i never thought that i would find myself
in bed amongst the stones
the columns are all men
begging to crush me
no shapes sail on the dark deep lakes
and no flags wave me home

in the caves
all cats are grey
in the caves
the textures coat my skin
in the death cell
a single note
rings on and on and on...

close to me



i've waited hours for this
i've made myself so sick
i wish i'd stayed
asleep today

i never thought this day would end
i never thought tonight could ever be
this close to me

just try to see in the dark
just try to make it work
to feel the fear before you're here
i make the shapes come much too close
i pull my eyes out
hold my breath
and wait until i shake...

but if i had your faith
then i could make it safe and clean
if only i was sure
that my head on the door was a dream

i've waited hours for this
i've made myself so sick
i wish i'd stayed asleep today
i never thought this day would end
i never thought tonight could ever be
this close to me

but if i had your face
then i could make it safe and clean
if only i was surethat my head on the doorwas a dream to

world in my eyes

let me take you on a trip
around the world and back
and you won't have to move
you just sit still

now let your mind do the walking
and let my body do the talking
let me show you the world in my eyes

i'll take you to the highest mountain
to the depths of the deepest sea
we won't need a map, believe me

now let my body do the moving
and let my hands do the soothing
let me show you the world in my eyes

that's all there is
nothing more than you can feel now
that's all there is

let me put you on a ship
on a long, long trip
your lips close to my lips
all the islands in the ocean
all the heaven's in the motion
let me show you the world in my eyes

that's all there is
nothing more than you can touch now
that's all there is

let me show you the world in my eyes

untitled

hopelessly drift
in the eyes of the ghost again
down on my knees
and my hands in the air again
pushing my face in the memory of you again
but i never know if it's real
never know how i wanted to feel
never quite said what i wanted to say to you
never quite managed the words to explain to you
never quite knew how to make them believable
and now the time has gone
another time undone
hopelessly fighting the devil
futility
feeling the moster
climb deeper inside of me
feeling him gnawing my heart away
hungrily
i'll never lose this pain
never dream of you again

a strange day

give me your eyes
that i might see the blind man kissing my hands
the sun is humming
my head turns to dust as he plays on his knees

and the sand
and the sea grows
i close my eyes
move slowly through drowning waves
going away on a strange day

and i laugh as i drift in the wind
blind
dancing on a beach of stone
cherish the faces as they wait for the end
a sudden hush across the water
and we're here again...

and the sand
and the sea grows
i close my eyes
move slowly through drowning waves
going away
on a strange day

my head falls backs
and the walls crash down
and the sky
and the impossible
explode
held for one moment i remember a song
an impression of sound
then everything is gone
forever

a strange day...

trust



there is no-one left in the world
that i can hold onto
there is really no-one left at all
there is only you
and if you leave me now
you leave all that we were
undone
there is really no-one left
you are the only one

and still the hardest part for you
to put your trust in me
i love you more than i can say
why won't you just believe?

all i want

tonight i'm feeling like an animal
tonight i'm howling inside
tonight i'm feeling like an animal
tonight i'm going wild

and all i want is to be with you again
and all i want is to hold you like a dog
and all i want is to be with you again
with you again
just to hold you like a dog

tonight i'm screaming like an animal
tonight i'm losing control
tonight i'm screaming like an animal
tonight i'm getting so low

and all i want is to be with you again
and all i want is to hold you like a dog
and all i want is to be with you again
with you again
just to hold you like a dog
that's all i want

just like heaven

just like heaven
show me
show me
show me
how you do that trick
the one that makes me scream
she said
the one that makes me laugh
she said
and threw her arms around my neck

show me how you do it
and i promise you
i promise that i'll run away with you
i'll run away with you

spinning on that dizzy edge
i kissed her face and kissed her head
and dreamed of all the different ways i had
to make her glow
why are you so far away?
she said
why won't you ever know that i'm in love with you?
that i'm in love with you?

just like heaven
you
soft and only
you
lost and lonely
you
strange as angels
dancing in the deepest oceans
twisting in the water
you're just like a dream...
you're just like a dream...

daylight licked me into shape
i must have been asleep for days
and moving lips to breathe her name
i opened up my eyes
and found myself alone
alone
alone
above a raging sea
that stole the only girl i loved
and drowned her deep inside of me

you
soft and only
you
lost and lonely
you
just like heaven

the caterpillar



flicka flicka flicka!
here you are
cata cata cata!
caterpillar girl
flowing in
and filling up my hopeless heart
oh never never go
dust my lemon lies
with powder pink and sweet
the day i stop
is the day you change
and fly away from me

you flicker
and you're beautiful
you glow inside my head
you hold me hypnotized
i'm mesmerized...

your flames
the flames that kiss me dead
dust my lemon lies
with powder pink and sweet
the day i stop
is the day you change
and fly away from me

cata cata cata!
caterpillar girl
cata cata cata!
caterpillar girl
cata cata cata!
caterpillar girl
cata cata cata!
cata cata cata!
caterpillar girl

a short term effect

movement
no movement
just a falling bird
cold as it hits the bleeding ground
he lived and died...
catch sight
cover me with earth
draped in black
static
white sound

a day without substance
a change of thought
an atmosphere that rots with time
colours that flicker in water
a short term effect

scream!
as she tries to push him over
helpless and sick
with teeth of madness
jump jump dance and sing
sideways across the desert
a charcoal face
bites my hand
time is sweet
derange and disengage everything

a day without substance
a change of thought
the atmosphere rots with time
colours that flicker in water
a short term effect

an echo
and a stranger's hand
a short term effect
an echo
and a stranger's hand
a short term effect

friday i'm in love



i don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday i don't care about you
it's Friday, i'm in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday, wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday I'm in love

saturday, wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday, never hesitate...

i don't care if mondays black
tuesday, wednesday - heart attack
thursday, never looking back
it's friday, I'm in love

monday, you can hold your head
tuesday, wednesday stay in bed
or thursday - watch the walls instead
it's friday, i'm in love

saturday, wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday, never hesitate...

dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you eat in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday, i'm in love

i don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday i don't care about you
it's friday, i'm in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday, wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday i'm in love

apart

he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say
"forgive"
but she justs drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
"i love you"
but he tells no more lies

he waits for her to sympathize
but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss
but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say
"forget"
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say
"no more
i'll never leave again"

how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last for ever

he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call
he waits to hear her say
"forgive"
but she just drops her pearl black eyes
and prays to hear him say
"i love you"
but he tells no more lies

how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last for ever

the snake pit

well we're a mile under the ground
and i'm thinking that it's christmas
and i'm kissing you hard
like i've got very important business
and no-one knows
and no-one sees us
because they're drinking their selves senseless
and i'm writhing
and i'm writhing
and i'm writhing in the snakepit

well i'm out in a car
and it's just full of stupid girls
and i've forgotten how to speak
and i just can't remember a word
and my eyes feel like they're bursting
and they're splitting like plums
and i'm writhing
and i'm writhing
and i'm writhing in the snake pit

the walk



i called you after midnight
then ran until i burst
i passed the howling woman
and stood outside your door

we walked around a lake
and woke up in the rain
and everyone turned over
troubled in their dreams again

visiting time is over
and so we walk away
and both play dead then cry out loud
why we always cry this way?

i kissed you in the water
and made your dry lips sing
i saw you look
like a japanese baby
in an instant i remembered everything...

i called you after midnight
then ran until my heart burst
i passed the howling woman
and stood outside your door

i kissed you in the water
and made your dry lips sing
i saw you look
like a japanese baby
in an instant i remembered everything...

mint car



the sun is up
i'm so happy i could scream!
and there's nowhere else in the world i'd rather be
than here with you
it's perfect
it's all i ever wanted
i almost can't believe that it's for real

i really don't think it gets any better than this
vanilla smile
and a gorgeous strawberry kiss!
birds sing we swing
clouds drift by and everything is like a dream
it's everything i wished

never guessed it got this good
wondered if it ever would
really didn't think it could
do it again?
i know we should!!!

the sun is up
i'm so fizzy i could burst!
you wet through and me headfirst
into this is perfect
it's all i ever wanted
ow! it feels so big it almost hurts!

never guessed it got this good
wondered if it ever would
really didn't think it could
do it some more?
i know we should!!!

say it will always be like this
the two of us together
it will always be like this
forever and ever and ever...

never guessed it got this good
wondered if it ever would
really didn't think it could
do it all the time?
i know that we should!!!

siamese twins

i chose an eternity of this
like falling angels
the world disappeared
laughing into the fire
is it always like this?
flesh and blood and the first kiss
the first colours
the first kiss

we writhed under a red light
voodoo smile
siamese twins
a girl at the window looks at me for an hour
then everything falls apart
broken inside me
it falls apart

the walls and the ceiling move in time
push a blade into my hands
slowly up the stairs
and into the room
is it always like this?

dancing in my pocket
worms eat my skin
she glows and grows
with arms outstretched
her legs around me...

in the morning i cried

leave me to die
you won't remember my voice
i walked away and grew old
you never talk
we never smile
i scream
you're nothing
i don't need you any more
you're nothing

it fades and spins
fades and spins...

sing out loud
we all die!!!
laughing into the fire...

is it always like this?

alt.end



yeah it's a big bright beautiful world
just the other side of the door
six billion beautiful faces
but i saw them all before...
no this is not about running out on you
not a case of right or wrong
it's only that it's over and done for me
it's already been and gone
and i don't want another go around - i don't want to start again
no i don't want another go around - i want this to be the end
i want this to be the end - i don't want to start again
i want this to be the last thing we do
it for me and you...
for all my dreams came true
yeah i know i should care if you come with me
yeah and i should care if you go
really should care about your love or your hate of me
yeah i should care... but i don't
and it's not about giving up on you
it's not a case of do or die
it's simply that it's over and out for me
there's no more room inside
and i don't want another run around - i don't want to start again
no i don't want another run around - i want this to be the end
i want this to be the end - i don't want to start again
i want this to be the last thing we do
it for me and you...
yeah it's a big bright beautiful world out there
just the other side of this door
six billion beautiful faces await
but i saw it all before...
no this is not about running out on you
not a case of right or wrong
it's only that it's over and done for me
it's already been and gone
and i don't want another go around - i don't want to start again
no i don't want another go around - i want this to be the end
i want this to be the end - i don't want to start again
i want this to be the last thing we do - this to be it for me and you
this to be the last we go through
this to be the end
for all my dreams came true

grinding halt


no light
no people
no speak
no people
no cars
no people
no food
no people

stopped
short
grinding halt
everything's coming to a grinding halt

no sound
no people
no clocks
no people
no fine
no people
no me
no people

stopped
short
grinding halt
everything's coming to a grinding halt

slow down
slow down
no people
slow down
everything's coming to a ...

the drowning man


she stands twelve feet above the flood
she stares
alone
across the water

the loneliness grows and slowly
fills her frozen body
sliding downwards

one by one her senses die
the memories fade
and leave her eyes
still seeing worlds that never were
and one by one the bright birds leave her...

starting at the violent sound
she tries to turn
but final
noiseless
slips and strikes her soft dark head
the water bows
receives her
and drowns her at its ease...

i would have left the world all bleeding
could i only help you love
the fleeting shapes
so many years ago
so young and beautiful and brave

everything was true
it couldn't be a story...
i wish it was all true
i wish it couldn't be a story

the words all left me
lifeless
hoping
breathing like the drowning man

oh fucshia!
you leave me
breathing like the drowning man
breathing like the drowning man

it used to be me

all he needs is everyone i've been
and all she needs is everywhere i've seen
all they need
anything i've touched
and all you need is everything i've loved
everything i've heard everything i've learned
everything i've tried everything i've held
everything i've felt everything i've lost
everything i've cried
until my whole head shrieks with grinding my teeth
struggling to find a single word i can keep
any kind of truth
any kind of hope
oh just any kind of word that doesn't make me choke

but i keep saying i will and i won't
i keep saying i do and i don't
i keep saying i feel
but there is nothing to feel
just a strange kind of nothing where it used to be me...
it used to be me

all he needs from me is everyone i've ever missed
and all she needs from me
everyone i've ever kissed
all they need from me
anything i've ever sung
yeah and all you need from me is everything i've ever said
everything i've ever done everything i've ever made
everything i've ever prayed everything i've ever believed
everything i've ever touched everything i've ever loved
everything i've ever thought everything i've ever dreamed
until my whole head screams with grinding my teeth
desperate to find a single word i can keep
any kind of faith
any kind of fix
oh just any kind of word that doesn't make me sick

and i keep saying i will but i won't
i keep saying i do but i don't
and i keep saying i feel
but there is nothing to feel
just this strange kind of nothing where it used to be me...

anything and everything
all that you need
get it for free
anything and everything
all that you need
get it from me

get it from me
get it from me
get it from me

sinking



i am slowing down
as the years go by
i am sinking

so i trick myself
like everybody else

the secrets i hide
twist me inside
they make me weaker

so i trick myself
like everybody else

i crouch in fear and wait
i'll never feel again...
if only i could remember
anything at all

a letter to elise

oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we never needed
any more than this
any more than this

oh elise it doesn't matter what you do
i know i'll never really get inside of you
to make your eyes catch fire
the way they should
the way the blue could pull me in
if they only would
if they only would
at least i'd lose this sense of sensing something else
that hides away
from me and you
there're worlds to part
with aching looks and breaking hearts
and all the prayers your hands can make
oh i just take as much as you can throw
and then throw it all away
oh i throw it all away
like throwing faces at the sky
like throwing arms round
yesterday
i stood and stared
wide-eyed in front of you
and the face i saw looked back
the way i wanted to
but i just can't hold my tears away
the way you do

elise believe i never wanted this
i thought this time i'd keep all of my promises
i thought you were the girl i always dreamed about
but i let the dream go
and the promises broke
and the make-believe ran out...

so elise
it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we never needed
any more than this
any more than this

and every time i try to pick it up
like falling sand
as fast as i pick it up
it runs away through my clutching hands
but there's nothing else i can really do
there's nothing else i can really do
there's nothing else
i can really do
at all...

hello, i love you


Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Let me jump in your game
Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Let me jump in your game
Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Let me jump in your game

She's walking down the street
Blind to every eye she meets
Do you think you'll be the guy
To make the queen of the angels sigh?

Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
I love you
Want you

Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Let me jump in your game
Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Let me jump in your game

She holds her head so high
Like a statue in the sky
Her arms are wicked and her legs are long
When she moves my brain screams out this song

Sidewalk crouches at her feet
Like a dog that begs for something sweet
Do you hope to make her see you fool ?
Do you hope to pluck this dusky jewel ?

Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello
I need you
I need you
Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?
Hello, I love you
Won't you tell me your name?

shiver and shake

shiver and shake
you're just a waste of time
you're just a babbling face
you're just three sick holes that run like sores
you're a fucking waste
you're like a slug on the floor
oh! you're useless and ugly
and useless and ugly
and i shiver and shake
when i think of how you make me hate

i want to smash you to pieces
i want to smash you up and screaming
i want to smash you helpless
down on the floor
smash you until you're not here anymore

and i shiver and shake
shiver and shake

three imaginary boys

walk across the garden
in the footsteps of my shadow
see the lights out
no-one's home
in amongst the statues
stare at nothing in
the garden moves...
can you help me?

close my eyes
and hold so tightly
scared of what the morning brings
waiting for tomorrow
never comes
deep inside
the empty feeling
all the night time leaves me
three imaginary boys

slipping through the door
hear my heart beat in the hallway
echoes
round and round
inside my head
drifting up the stairs
i see the steps behind me
disappearing...
can you help me?

close my eyes
and hold so tightly
scared of what the morning brings
waiting for tomorrow
never comes
deep inside
the empty feeling
all the night time leaves me
three imaginary boys sing in my
sleep sweet child
the moon will change your mind...

see the cracked reflection
standing still
before the bedroom mirror
over my shoulder
but no-one's there
whispers in the silence
pressing close behind me
pressing close behind
can you help me?

can you help me?

high


when i see you sky as a kite
as high as i might
i can't get that high
the way you move
the how you burst the clouds
it makes me want to try

when i see you sticky as lips
as licky as trips
i can't lick that far
but when you pout
the way you shout out loud
it makes me want to start
and when i see you happy as a girl
that swims in a world of magic show
it makes me bite my fingers through
to think i could've let you go

and when i see you
take the same sweet steps
you used to take
i say i'll keep on holding you
my arms so tight
i'll never let you slip away

and when i see you kitten as a cat
yeah as smitten as that
i can't get that small
tthe way you fur
the how you purr
it makes me want to paw you all
and when i see you happy as a girl
that lives in a world of make-believe
it makes me pull my hair all out
to think i could've let you leave

and when i see you
take the same sweet steps
you used to take
i know i'll keep on holding you
in arms so tight
they'll never let you go

bare

if you've got something left to say
you'd better say it now
anything but "stay"
just say it now
we know we've reached the end
we just don't know how
"well at least we'll still be friends"
yeah one last useless vow...

"there are different ways to live"
yeah i know that stuff
"other ways to give"
yeah all that stuff
but holding onto used to be
is not enough
memory's not life
and it's not love

we should let it all go
it never stays the same
so why does it hurt me like this
when you say that i've changed?
when you say that i've aged?
say i'm afraid...

and all the tears you cry
they're not tears for me
regrets about your life
they're not regrets for me
it never turns out how you want
why can't you see?
it all just slips away
it always slips away
eventually...

so if you've got nothing left to say
just say goodbye
turn your face away
and say goodbye
you know we've reached the end
you just don't know why
and you know we can't pretend
after all this time

so just let it all go
nothing ever stays the same
so why does it hurt me like this
to say that i've changed?
to say that i've aged?
say i'm afraid...

but there are long long nights when i lay awake
and i think of what i've done
of how i've thrown my sweetest dreams away
and what i've really become
and however hard i try
i will always feel regret
however hard i try
i will never forget

i will never forget

cut here



"So we meet again!" and I offer my hand
All dry and English slow
And you look at me and I understand
Yeah it's a look I used to know
"Three long years... and your favourite man...
Is that any way to say hello?"
And you hold me... like you'll never let me go

"Oh c'mon and have a drink with me
Sit down and talk a while..."
"Oh I wish I could... and I will!
But now I just don’t have the time..."
And over my shoulder as I walk away
I see you give that look goodbye...
I still see that look in your eye...

So dizzy Mr. Busy - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the silly frilly things have to first get done
In a minute - sometime soon - maybe next time - make it June
Until later... doesn't always come

It's so hard to think "It ends sometime
And this could be the last
I should really hear you sing again
And I should really watch you dance"
Because it's hard to think
"I'll never get another chance
To hold you... to hold you... "

But chilly Mr. Dilly - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the tizzy fizzy idiot things must get done
In a second - just hang on - all in good time - wont be long
Until later...

I should've stopped to think - I should've made the time
I could've had that drink - I could've talked a while
I would've done it right - I would've moved us on
But I didn't - now it's all too late
It's over... over
And you're gone..

I miss you I miss you I miss you
I miss you I miss you I miss you so much

But how many times can I walk away and wish "If only..."
But how many times can I talk this way and wish "If only..."
Keep on making the same mistake
Keep on aching the same heartbreak
I wish "If only..."

But "If only...."
Is a wish too late...

fascination street


oh it's opening time
down on fascination street
so let's cut the conversation
and get out for a bit
because i feel it all fading and paling
and i'm begging
to drag you down with me
to kick the last nail in
yeah! i like you in that
like i like you to scream
but if you open your mouth
then i can't be responsible
for quite what goes in
or to care what comes out
so just pull on your hair
just pull on your pout
and let's move to the beat
like we know that it's over
if you slip going under
slip over my shoulder
so just pull on your face
just pull on your feet
and let's hit opening time
down on fascination street

so pull on your hair
pull on your pout
cut the conversation
just open your mouth
pull on your face
pull on your feet
and let's hit opening time
down on fascination street

the kiss

kiss me kiss me kiss me!
your tongue is like poison
so swollen it fills up my mouth


love me love me love me!
you nail me to the floor
and push my guts all inside out

get it out get it out get it out!
get your fucking voice
out of my head!

i never wanted this
i never wanted any of this
i wish you were dead
i wish you were dead

i never wanted any of this
i wish you were dead
dead

fake


I can't fly I never really could
I don't feel you ever really understood at all
I can't fly I never really could
I just throw my arms out as I fall

Always say you know me, you you dont know me at all
Only want to hold me, but I'm not here to hold
Always say you know me, but you dont know me at all
Only want to show me, but i'm not yours to show, no no no

I Dont dream I never really did
Dont believe you ever really took this into good
No I dont dream I never really did
I just wake up, make up as I should

no i dont dream
no i dont dream
no i dont dream

I wont see I never really would
I dont sense you ever realised it right
No i wont see i never really would
I just roll my eyes up out of sight

Always say you know me, you you don't know me at all
Only want to hold me, but i'm not here to hold
Always say you know me, but you don't know me at all
Only want to show me, but i'm not yours to show

I can't ever come back, If I never go
I don't ever explain, if I never know
I won't ever take it, if I never give
and if I never live, if I never live, if I never live

one more time

i'd love to touch the sky tonight
i'd love to touch the sky
so take me in your arms
and lift me like a child
and hold me up so high
and never let me go
take me
take me in your arms tonight

hold me
hold me up so high
and never let me down
hold me
hold me up so high
to touch the sky
just one more time

take me in your arms tonight
take me in your arms
just one more time
just one more time
just one more time

seventeen seconds


time slips away
and the light begins to fade
and everything is quiet now
feeling is gone
and the picture disappears
and everything is cold now
the dream had to end
the wish never came true
and the girl
starts to sing

seventeen seconds
a measure of life
seventeen seconds

fear of ghosts

like a feeling that i'm down
deep inside my heart
like i'm looking out through
splitting blood red
windows in my heart
from a higher up than heaven
and a harder down than stone
shake the fear that always clawing
pulls me clawing down alone
as i spitting splitting blood red
breaking windows in my heart
and the past is taunting
fear of ghosts
is forcing me apart
and the further i get
from the things that i care about
the less i care about
how much further away i get...

i am lost again
with everything gone
and more alone
than i have ever been
i expect you to understand
to feel it too
but i know that even if you will
you cannot ever help me
nor can i
ever help you

like cockatoos

she walked out of her house
and looked around
at all the gardens that looked
back at her house
(like all the faces
that quiz when you smile... )

and he was standing
at the corner
where the road turned dark
a part of shiny wet
like blood the rain fell
black down on the street

and kissed his feet she fell
her head an inch away from heaven
and her face pressed tight
and all around the night sang out
like cockatoos

"there are a thousand things" he said
"i'll never say those things to you again"
and turning on his heel
he left a trace of bubbles
bleeding in his stead

and in her head
a picture of a boy who left her
lonely in the rain
(and all around the night sang out
like cockatoos)

open

i really don't know what i'm doing here
i really think i should've gone to bed tonight but...
"just one drink
and there're some people to meet you
i think that you'll like them
i have to say we do
and i promise in less than than an hour we will honestly go...
now why don't i just get you another
while you just say hello... "

yeah just say hello...

so i'm clutching it tight
another glass in my hand
and my mouth and the smiles
moving up as i stand up
too close and too wide
and the smiles are too bright
and i breathe in too deep
and my head's getting light
but the air is getting heavier and it's closer
and i'm starting to sway
and the hands all on my shoulders don't have names
and they won't go away
so here i go
here i go again...

falling into strangers
and it's only just eleven
and i'm staring like a child
until someone slips me heaven
and i take it on my knees
just like a thousand times before
and i get transfixed
that fixed
and i'm just looking at the floor
just looking at the floor
yeah i look at the floor...

and i'm starting to laugh
like an animal in pain
and i've got blood on my hands
and i've got hands in my brain
and the first short retch
leaves me gasping for more
and i stagger over screaming
on my way to the floor
and i'm back on my back
with the lights and the lies in my eyes
and the colour and the music's too loud
and my head's all the wrong size
so here i go
here i go again...

yeah i laugh and i jump
and i sing and i laugh
and i dance and i laugh
and i laugh and i laugh
and i can't seem to think
where this is
who i am
why i'm keeping this going
keep pouring it out
keep pouring it down
keeping it going
keep pouring it down
and the way the rain comes down hard...
that's the way i feel inside...

i can't take it anymore
this it i've become
this is it like i get
when my life's going numb
i just keep moving my mouth
i just keep moving my feet
i say i'm loving you to death
like i'm losing my breath
and all the smiles that i wear
and all the games that i play
and all the drinks that i mix
and i drink until i'm sick
and all the faces i make
and all the shapes that i throw
and alll the people i meet
and all the words that i know
makes me sick to the heart
oh i feel so tired...

and the way the rain comes down hard...
that's how i feel inside...

lovesong



whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am home again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am whole again

whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am young again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am fun again

however far away
i will always love you
however long i stay
i will always love you
whatever words i say
i will always love you
i will always love you

whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am free again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am clean again

however far away
i will always love you
however long i stay
i will always love you
whatever words i say
i will always love you
i will always love you

torture


i'm in a room without a light
a room without a view
i'm here for one more treacherous night
another night with you
it tortures me to move my hands
to try to move at all
and pulled
my skin so tight it screams
and screams and screams
and pulls some more

hanging like this
like a vampire bat
hanging like this
standing on your back
i'm helpless, i'm helpless again
oh, i'm helpless again

my body is cut and broken
it's shattered and sore
my body is cut wide open
i can't stand anymore
it tortures me to move my hands
to try to move at all
and pulled
my skin so tight it screams
and screams and screams
and screams for more

hanging like this
like a vampire bat
hanging like this
standing on your back
oh it's torture
but i'm almost there
it's torture
but i'm almost there

it's torture
but i'm almost there
it's torture
but i'm almost there...
it's torture
it's torture
but i'm almost there

killing an arab



standing on the beach
with a gun in my hand
staring at the sea
staring at the sand
staring down the barrel
at the arab on the ground
see his open mouth
but I hear no sound

i'm alive
i'm dead
i'm a stranger
killing an arab

i can turn
and walk away
or I can fire the gun
staring at the sky
staring at the sun
whichever I choose
it amounts to the same
absolutely nothing

i'm alive
i'm dead
i'm a stranger
killing an arab

i feel the silver jump
smooth in my hand
staring at the sea
staring at the sand
staring at myself
reflected in the eyes
of the dead man on the beach
the dead man on the beach

i'm alive
i'm dead
i'm the stranger
killing an arab

icing sugar



you're delicious
dreaming
slack jawed
green eyed
rub my nose in
icing sugar
smooth as
when this cold and deadly
blade
kisses the fruit
so soft
and gently breathing
under your skin

oh i'll empty you
i'll empty you
as empty as a boy can be
as empty
as a boy can be

i don't know what's going on

i don't know what's going on
i am so up close to you
i don't know what's going on
i don't know what's going on
i am so confused by you
i don't know what's going on
no don't say anymore
to me at all
to me at all
no don't say more
to me at all
to me at all
i am so in love with you...
with you... with you...
i am so in love with you...
with you... with you...
i don't know what's going on
i am so in deep with you
i don't know what's going on
i don't know what's going on
i am so disturbed by you
no don't say anymore
to me at all
to me at all
no don't say more
to me at all
to me at all
i am so in love with...
you!

a night like this

say goodbye on a night like this
if it's the last thing we ever do
you never looked as lost as this
sometimes it doesn't even look like you
it goes dark
it goes darker still
please stay
but i watch you like i'm made of stone
as you walk away...

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
a witch hunt for another girl
for always and ever is always for you
your trust
the most gorgeously stupid thing i ever cut in the world

say hello on a day like today
say it everytime you move
the way that you look at me now
makes me wish i was you
it goes deep
it goes deeper still
this touch
and the smile and the shake of your head...

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
can't stand here like this anymore
for always and ever is always for you
i want it to be perfect
like before...
i want to change it all

i want to change

the upstairs room

i love it all
these games we play
i close my eyes
you run away
i'm sure i asked you to stay
but now you're gone

and so i feel the grey
pulse in my head
i turn off the lights and crawl into bed
i try to think of sunshine
but my body goes wet
with the first crash of thunder...

i don't think i can know
anyone but you dear
that's for sure!

when it gets to four
it's my turn to go
oh the kiss!
so alcoholic and slow
arranging me for saturday
i thought you would know
that i always sleep alone...

i don't think i can know
anyone but you
dear
that's for sure!

the upstairs room is cool and bright
we can go up there in summer
and dance all night...

your sister started talking at a minute after ten
so everyone jumped up
and then fell over again
in april you can join them
and stare at me
at the ghost from your past...

a forest


the best forever
come closer and see
see into the trees
find the girl
if you can
come closer and see
see into the dark
just follow your eyes
just follow your eyes
i hear her voice
calling my name
the sound is deep
in the dark
i hear her voice
and start to run
into the trees
into the trees

into the trees

suddenly i stop
but i know it's too late
i'm lost in a forest
all alone
the girl was never there
it's always the same
i'm running towards nothing
again and again


maybe someday



no i won't do it again, i don't want to pretend
if it can't be like before i've got to let it end
i don't want what i was, i had a change of head
but maybe someday...
yeah maybe someday

i've got to let it go and leave it gone
just walk away, stop it going on
get too scared to jump if i wait too long
but maybe someday...

i'll see you smile as you call my name
start to feel, and it feels the same
and i know that maybe someday's come
maybe someday's come...
again!

so tell me someday's come tell me some days come again...

no i won't do it some more, doesn't take any sense
if it can't be like it was, i've got to let it rest
i don't want what i did, i had a change of tense
but maybe someday...

i'll see you smile as you call my name
start to feel, and it feels the same
and i know that maybe someday's come
maybe someday's come...

if i could do it again maybe just once more
think i could make it work like i did it before
if i could try it out
if i could just be sure
that maybe someday is the last time
yeah maybe someday is the end
oh maybe someday is when it all stops
or maybe someday always comes again...

39

so the fire is almost out and there's nothing left to burn
i've run right out of thoughts and i've run right out of words
as i used them up, i used them up...

yeah the fire is almost cold and there's nothing left to burn
i've run right out of feeling and i've run right out of world
and everything i promised, and everything i tried
yeah everything i ever did i used to feed the fire

i used to feed the fire
i used to feed the fire
i used to feed the fire
but the fire is almost out is almost out...
and there's nothing left to burn
no there's nothing left to burn
not even this...

and the fire is almost dead and there's nothing left to burn
i've finished everything...
and all the things i promised, and all the things i tried
yeah all the things i ever dreamed i used to feed the fire

i used to feed the fire
i used to feed the fire
i used to feed the fire
but the fire is almost out...

half my life i've been here
half my life in flames
using all i ever had to keep the fire ablaze
to keep the fire ablaze
to keep the fire ablaze
to keep the fire ablaze
but there's nothing left to burn
no there's nothing left to burn
and the fire is almost out
almost out, almost out
almost out, almost out...

and there's nothing left to burn

there is no if...

remember the first time i told you i love you
it was raining hard and you never heard
you sneezed! and i had to say it over
"i said i love you" i said... you didn't say a word
just held you hands to my shining eyes
and i watched as the rain ran through your fingers
held your hands to my shining eyes and smiled as you kissed me...

"if you die" you siad "so do i" you said...
and it starts the day you make the sign
"tell me i'm forever yours and you're forever mine
forever mine..."

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said...
and it starts the day you cross that line
"swear i will always be yours and you'll always be mine
you'll always be mine
always be mine..."

remember the last time i told you i love you
it was warm and safe in our perfect world
you yawned and i had to say it over
"i said i love you" i said... you didn't say a word
and i watched as the tears ran through your fingers
held your hands to your shining eyes and cried...

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said...
but it ends the day you see how it is
there is no always forever... just this...
just this...

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said
but it ends the day you understand
there is no if... just and

there is no if... just and

there is no if...

watching me fall

i've been watching me fall for it seems like years
watching me grow small, i watch me disappear
slipping out my ordinary world, out my ordinary eyes
yeah slipping out the ordinary me into someone else's life
into someone else's life...

there's thin white cold new moon and the snow is coming down
and the neon bright tokyo lights flicker through the crowd
i've been drifting around for hours and i'm lost and i'm tired
when a whisper in my ear insatiable breathes
"why don't you follow me inside?..."

yeah the room is small, the room is bright
her hair is black, the bed is white
and the night is always young
is always young... always young
the night is always young...

yeah i've been seeing them strip to the bone in the mirror
she holds out her hands and i follow her down to my knees
and the sucking inside insatiable smiles
"you will forget yourself in me..."

yeah the room is small, the room is bright
her eyes are black, the bed is white
and the night is always young
and the night goes on and on
and the night is always young
and the night is never over and over and over and over and over...

and then it's gone
and then it's gone
yeah then it's gone...

yeah it's a cruel mean cold new day and outside the snow
is still coming down
and in the blood red tokyo bed i watch me coming round
she pulled him down for hours
deeper than i've ever been
and as i fall in the mirror on the wall
i'm watching me scream
i'm watching me scream
i'm watching me scream

i'm watching me scream

yeah i've been watching me go for it must be years
watching me get slow, i watch me disappear
and one day, yeah i know, i won't come back at all
and always over and over in his ordinary eyes
i'm watching me fall
i'm watching me fall
i'm watching me fall
i'm watching me fall

jupiter crash

she follows me down to the sound of the sea
slips to the sand and stares up at me
"is this how it happens? is this how it feels?
is this how a star falls?
is this how a star falls?"

the night turns as i try to explain
irresistable attraction and orbital plane
"or maybe it's more like a moth to a flame?"
she brushes my face with her smile
"forget about stars for a while..."
as she melts...

meanwhile millions of miles away in space
the incoming comet brushes jupiter's face
and disappears away with barely a trace

"was that it? was that the jupiter show?
it kinda wasn't quite what i'd hoped for you know
and pulling away she stands up slow
and round her the night turns
round her the night turns...

yeah that was it
that was the jupiter crash
drawn too close and gone in a flash
just a few brusies in the region of the splash...

she left to the sound of the sea
she just drifted away from me
so much for gravity...

another day

the sun rises slowly
on another day
the eastern sky grows
cold
winter in water colours
shades of grey

something
something holds me
holds me hypnotized

i stare at the window
stare at the window
waiting for the day
to go
winter in water colours
shades of grey

boys don't cry



i would say i'm sorry
if i thought that it would change your mind
but i know that this time
i've said too much
been too unkind

i try to laugh about it
cover it all up with lies
i try and
laugh about it
hiding the tears in my eyes
cause boys don't cry
boys don't cry

i would break down at your feet
and beg forgiveness
plead with you
but i know that
it's too late
and now there's nothing i can do

so i try to laugh about it
cover it all up with lies
i try to
laugh about it
hiding the tears in my eyes
cause boys don't cry

i would tell you
that i loved you
if i thought that you would stay
but i know that it's no use
that you've already
gone away

misjudged your limits
pushed you too far
took you for granted
i thought that you needed me more

now i would do most anything
to get you back by my side
but i just
keep on laughing
hiding the tears in my eyes
cause boys don't cry
boys don't cry
boys don't cry

a chain of flowers

please wake up
it's so dark and cold
please wake up
i feel so alone
and i feel so scared
that you're going away
and i feel so scared...

all i want is summer
stories from before
just like the day you tried to hide
behind the churchyard wall
and fell asleep before i came...

i found you
in a chain of flowers
sleeping like a marble girl
sleeping in another world...

i'll never tell you
of all the different ways
you make me so afraid...

secrets



secrets
share with another girl
talking all night in a room
all night
everything slowing down
i wish i was yours...

strangers
nobody knows we love
i catch your eyes in the dark
one look relives the memory
remember me
the way i used to be

more than this

for a second of your life
tell me that it's true
waiting for a sign
it's all i want of you
your heart hides a secret
a promise of what is
of something more than this

just a second of your time
any one will do
a taste of any other
is all i want from you
offer me the world
and how can i resist
something more than this?

make-believe in magic
make-believe in dreams
make-believe -- impossible
nothing as it seems
see, touch, taste, smell, hear
but never know if it's real (but never know if it's real)

for a second of your life
tell me if it's true
anywhere we are
is all i want of you
on your lips lies a secret
a promise of a kiss
of something more than this

just a second of your time
any one will do
to know from any other
is all i want from you
you've given me the world
you know i can't resist
something more than this

make-believe in magic
make-believe in dreams
make-believe -- impossible
nothing as it seems
never really understand
what anything means (what anything means)

another second of my life
not knowing if it's true
make-believe in nothing
is all i want of you
whispering the secret
whispering there is
always something other
something more than this
(the cure)

why can't i be you

you're so gorgeous i'll do anything!
i'll kiss you from your feet
to where your head begins!
you're so perfect!
you're so right as rain!
you make me
make me hungry again

everything you do is irresistible
everything you do is simply kissable
why can't i be you?

i'll run around in circles
'til i run out of breath
i'll eat you all up
or i'll just hug you to death
you're so wonderful!
too good to be true!
you make me
make me hungry for you

everything you do is simply delicate
everything you do is quite angelicate
why can't i be you?

you turn my head when you turn around
you turn the whole world upside down
i'm smitten i'm bitten i'm hooked i'm cooked
i'm stuck like glue!
you make me
make me hungry for you

everything you do is simply dreamy
everything you do is quite delicious
why can't i be you?
why can't i be you?
why can't i be you?

you're simply elegant!
(the cure)

adonais

he breaks the spell still young
awakes from out this dream of life
and leaves us sleeping
storm racked blind consumed
by phantom pale displays of grief
he slips from out this shadow land of pain
where heads grow sorrow grey
and age destroys all hope
and spirits crushed
lament and hide away

but wordless watch the soft sky smile
and breathless hear the low wind sigh
"what death may join no more let life divide"

"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
be with me... "

he breaks the chains still young
dispels the hateful shades of treacherous time
and leaves us sleeping
tortured mute
devoured by ghostly shapes of life
he slips from ties of dust
to be the world we dream he lives
a part of everything we feel
the young and beautiful
and brave of heart

but wordless watch the soft sky smile
and breathless hear the low wind sigh
"what death may join no more let life divide"

"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
be with me... "
"dream yourself awake" he calls
"eternity awaits us all
open your eyes and be with me
forever... "
(the cure)

out of this world

when we look back at it all as i know we will
you and me, wide eyed
i wonder...
will we really remember how it feels to be this alive?

and i know we have to go
i realize we only get to stay so long
always have to go back to real lives
where we belong
where we belong
where we belong

when we think back to all this and i'm sure we will
me and you, here and now
will we forget the way it really is
why it feels like this and how?

and we always have to go i realize
we always have to say goodbye
always have to go back to real lives

but real lizes are the reason why
we want to live another life
we want to feel another time
another time...

yeah another time

to feel another time...

when we look back at it all as i know we will
you and me, wide eyed
i wonder...
will we really remember how it feels to be this alive?

and i know we have to go
i realize we always have to turn away
always have to go back to real lives

but real lives are why we stay
for another dream
another day
for another world
another way
for another way...

one last time before it's over
one last time before the end
one last time before it's time to go again...
(the cure)

pictures of you



i've been looking so long at these pictures of you
that i almost believe that they're real
i've been living so long with my pictures of you
that i almost believe that the pictures are
all i can feel

remembering
you standing quiet in the rain
as i ran to your heart to be near
and we kissed as the sky fell in
holding you close
how i always held close in your fear
remembering
you running soft through the night
you were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow
and screamed at the make-believe
screamed at the sky
and you finally found all your courage
to let it all go

remembering
you fallen into my arms
crying for the death of your heart
you were stone white
so delicate
lost in the cold
you were always so lost in the dark
remembering
you how you used to be
slow drowned
you were angels
so much more than everything
hold for the last time then slip away quietly
open my eyes
but i never see anything

if only i'd thought of the right words
i could have held on to your heart
if only i'd thought of the right words
i wouldn't be breaking apart
all my pictures of you

looking so long at these pictures of you
but i never hold on to your heart
looking so long for the words to be true
but always just breaking apart
my pictures of you

there was nothing in the world
that i ever wanted more
than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world
that i ever wanted more
than to never feel the breaking apart
all my pictures of you
(the cure)

how beautiful you are


you want to know why i hate you?
well i'll try and explain...

you remember that day in paris
when we wandered through the rain
and promised to each other
that we'd always think the same
and dreamed that dream
to be two souls as one

and stopped just as the sun set
and waited for the night
outside a glittering building
of glittering glass and burning light...

and in the road before us
stood a weary greyish man
who held a child upon his back
a small boy by the hand
the three of them were dressed in rags
and thinner than air
and all six eyes stared fixedly on you

the father's eyes said "beautiful!
how beautiful you are!"
the boy's eyes said
"how beautiful!
she shimmers like a star!"
the child's eyes uttered nothing
but a mute and utter joy
and filled my heart with shame for us
at the way we are

i turned to look at you
to read my thought upon your face
and gazed so deep into your eyes
so beautiful and strange
until you spoke
and showed me understanding is a dream
"i hate these people staring
make them go away from me!"

the father's eyes said "beautiful!
how beautiful you are!"
the boy's eyes said
"how beautiful! she glitters like a star!"
the child's eyes uttered nothing
but quiet and utter joy
and stilled my heart with sadness
for the way we are...

and this is why i hate you
and how i understand
that no-one ever knows or loves another
or loves another
(the cure)

lullaby


on candystripe legs the spiderman comes
softly through the shadow of the evening sun
stealing past the windows of the blissfully dead
looking for the victim shivering in bed
searching out fear in the gathering gloom and
suddenly!
a movement in the corner of the room!
and there is nothing i can do
when i realise with fright
that the spiderman is having me for dinner tonight!

quietly he laughs and shaking his head
creeps closer now
closer to the foot of the bed
and softer than shadow and quicker than flies
his arms are all around me and his tongue in my eyes
"be still be calm be quiet now my precious boy
don't struggle like that or i will only love you more
for it's much too late to get away or turn on the light
the spiderman is having you for dinner tonight"

and i feel like i'm being eaten
by a thousand million shivering furry holes
and i know that in the morning i will wake up
in the shivering cold

and the spiderman is always hungry...

fight

sometimes there's nothing to feel
sometimes there's nothing to hold
sometimes there's no time to run away
sometimes you just feel so old
the times it hurts when you cry
the times it hurts just to breathe
and then it seems like there's no-one left
and all you want is to sleep

fight fight fight
just push it away
fight fight fight
just push it until it breaks
fight fight fight
don't cry at the pain
fight fight fight
or watch yourself burn again
fight fight fight
don't howl like a dog
fight fight
just fill up the sky
fight fight fight
fight til you drop
fight fight fight
and never never
never stop

fight fight fight
fight fight fight

so when the hurting starts
and when the nightmares begin
remember
you can fill up the sky
you don't have to give in
you don't have to give in

never give in
never give in
never give in
(the cure)

give me it


get away from me
get your fingers out of my face
this room's so hot
this room's so hot

i break the walls

get away from me
leave me alone
like the pig on the stairs
hanging
in a groovy purple shirt

gasping for air
i'm gasping for air
i'm gasping for love
i'm gasping for air...

slit the cats like cheese
then eat the sweet sticky things
suck harder!
suck harder!
suck your insides
insides out!

blood thick swimming round your feet
as you're choking
choking
choking on the fleshy words

give me it give me it give me it
deaden my glassy mind
give me it give me it
make me blind
one step back and one step down
and slip the needles in my side...

my head is cold
my hands are cold
my heart is cold
my heart is black
and stops every fucking night
every night
i wait until it stops...

sing birds sing birds sing birds sing
get away...
(the cure)

in between days


yesterday i got so old
i felt like i could die
yesterday i got so old
it made me want to cry
go on go on
just walk away
your choice is made
go on go on
and disappear
go on go on
away from here

and i know i was wrong
when i said it was true
that it couldn't be me and be her
inbetween without you
without you

yesterday i got so scared
i shivered like a child
yesterday away from you
it froze me deep inside
come back come back
don't walk away
come back come back
come back today
come back come back
why can't you see
come back come back
come back to me

and i know i was wrong
when i said it was true
that it couldn't be me and be her
inbetween without you
without you

the holy hour


i kneel and wait in silence
as one by one the people slip away
into the night
the quiet and empty bodies
kiss the ground before they pray
kiss the ground
and slip away

i sit and listen dreamlessly
a promise of salvation makes me stay
then look at your face
and feel my heart pushed in
as all around the children play
the games they tired of yesterday
they play
they play

i stand and hear my voice
cry out
a wordless scream at ancient power
it breaks against stone
i softly leave you crying
i cannot hold what you devour
the sacrifice of penance
in the holy hour
(the cure)

the perfect girl

you're such a strange girl
i think you come from another world
you're such a strange girl
i really don't understand a word
you're such a strange girl
i'd like to shake you around and around
you're such a strange girl
i'd like to turn you all upside down

you're such a strange girl
the way you look like you do
you're such a strange girl
i want to be with you

i think i'm falling
i think i'm falling in
i think i'm falling in love with you
with you
(the cure)

hot hot hot!!!


the first time i saw lightning strike
i saw it underground
six deep feet below the street
the sky came crashing down
for a second that place was lost in space
then everything went black
i left that basement burning
and i never went back

the second time i saw it strike
i saw it at sea
it lit up all the fish like rain
and rained them down on me
for a second that boat was still afloat
then everything went black
i left it underwater
and i never went back

hey hey hey!!!
but i like it when that lightning comes
hey hey hey!!!
yes ilike it a lot
hey hey hey!!!
yes i'm jumping like a jumping jack
dancing screaming itching squealing fevered
feeling hot hot hot!!!

the third time i saw lightning strike
it hit me in bed
it threw me around
and left me for dead
for a second that room was on the moon
then everything went black
i left that house on fire
and i never went back

hey hey hey!!!
but i like it when that lightning comes
hey hey hey!!!
yes ilike it a lot
hey hey hey!!!
yes i'm jumping like a jumping jack
dancing screaming itching squealing fevered
feeling hot hot hot!!!
(the cure)

wailing wall

the holy city breathed
like a dying man
it moved with hopeful tears
with the tears of the blind

and on and on as the night drew in
through broken streets
that sucked me in
my feet were bare and cut with stones
with walking to the promised land

i pushed through crowds
through seas of prayer
through twisting hands and choking air
a vulture at the wailing wall
i circled...
waiting...
(the cure)

cold

scarred
your back was turned
curled like an embryo
take another face
you will be kissed again
i was cold as i mouthed the words
and crawled across the mirror
i wait
await the next breath
your name
like ice into my heart

a shallow grave
a monument to the ruined age
ice in my eyes
and eyes like ice don't move
screaming at the moon
another past time
your name
like ice into my heart

everything as cold as life
can no one save you?
everything
as cold as silence
and you never say a word

your name
like ice into my heart
your name
like ice into my heart
(the cure)

this morning


nothing left to feel
nothing more to do
nothing left to give
nothing more in you
nothing else to have or hold
nothing left, but time to go
time to go

years go by
didn't really say that much at all
and moments just fly
didn't ever really touch at all
weeks always run down
didn't really get that close at all
and days, days fall out
didn't ever really know at all

and then we're here in a room too clean and too bright
she stares at you for an hour
you stare into the light
for one last hour in the room
so mean and so white
i stare at her in this room as she stares into the night

nothing left to feel
nothing more to do
nothing left to ask
nothing more of you
nothing else to share or show
nothing left but time to go

in his eyes as we turn no eternity of life
in his eyes as we turn no infinity of why
in his eyes as we turn no beautiful goodbye
in his eyes as we turn... nothing but tears
in his eyes as we turn... nothing but tears

::I couldn't understand too much of what was being said, in a matter of minutes,
peacefully so slow, I had to think to breath, my heart burst, we moved in silence really slowly away from the world,
as we drove a strange silence, that moment, nothing will ever be the same, nothing will ever be the same, nothing
will ever be the same

days fall out
weeks always run down
moments just fly
weeks go by
and then were here
and then we're here in a room too clean and too bright
i stare at you for an hour
you stare into the light
for one last hour in the room so mean and so white
you stare at me in this room as I stare into the night

nothing left to feel
nothing more to do
nothing LEFT to take
nothing more from you
nothing else to need or know
there's nothing left at all...but time to go
(the cure)

disintegration


oh i miss the kiss of treachery the shameless
kiss of vanity the soft and the black and the
velvety up tight against the side of me and
mouth and eyes and heart all bleed and run in
thickening streams of greed as bit by bit it
starts the need to just let go my party piece
oh i miss the kiss of treachery the aching kiss
before i feed the stench of a love for a younger
meat and the sound that it makes when it cuts
in deep the holding up on bended knees the
addiction of duplicities as bit by bit it starts
the need to just let go my party piece

but i never said i would stay to the end so i
leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
screaming me over and over and over i leave
you with photographs pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
songs about happiness murmured in dreams
when we both us knew how the ending would
be...

so it's all come back round to breaking apart
again breking apart like i'm made up of glass
again making it up behind my back again
holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
holding it up behind my head again cut in deep
to the heart of the bone again round and round
and round and it's coming apart again over and
over and over

now that i know that i'm breaking to pieces
i'll pull out my heart and i'll feed it to anyone
crying for sympathy
crocodile cry for the love of the crowd and the three cheers from everyone
dropping through sky through the glass of the roof through the roof of your mouth
through the mouth of your eye through the eye
of the needle it's easier for me to get closer to
heaven than ever feel whole again

i never said i would stay to the end i knew
i would leave you with babies and everything
screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
screaming me over and over and over i leave
you with photographs pictues of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
songs about happiness murmured in dreams when
both of us knew how the end always is...

how the end always is...